Life after the Storm

(taken at 11-30-11) Apetite getting bigger! and 12 days (starting tomorrow) we get to find out what gummy bear is!!! I'm getting anxious and hope to start feeling him/her soon. Friends who are pregnant around the same time as me have already started feeling their tiny ones. I haven't felt anything, sadly. I heard the heartbeat so in that sense, I know its at least ALIVE...but I'd really like to start feeling something.

Do you know why I love fall? Aside from the wonders of nature - falling leaves, browns, oranges and reds, thanksgiving, turkey, spiced pumpkin latte at starbucks?? Ok, so that last one isn't really on my list. I've been banned from Starbucks (my first love) by my current love (the hubs). I love fall because I have absolutely NO EXCUSES to NOT RUN. It's perfect, breezy and slightly chilly. Hoodies, leggings and my favorite tennis shoes and I'm good to go. I walked 1.8 miles today and probably jogged about .25 mile. I wasn't exactly sure how the kid was going to take it. But it wasn't like September. It was still 90 plus degrees outside and after only going for a minute, felt like I could collapse at any second!!! I did talk to my doctor at 9 weeks that I'm an "occassional runner" and if it was still ok to run when the mood strikes. She gave me the go ahead. I even started reading and researching books on running while pregant and for the most pa...

tomorrow starts my 2nd trimester. i really hope that the tiredness goes away.....actually, i'm not for certain if its tiredness or laziness that's the problem. i can't believe that i've only got 26 weeks left in this pregnancy. it seemed like only yesterday, i was still wrapping my brain around the idea of being a parent. i've only got six and a half months to be really, really selfish and sadly, i've been too tired to care. for a lot of women, this stage of pregnancy is filled with resounding energy......which is great since i haven't walked in a couple of weeks and really need to. yesterday, i played (or rather attempted to play) tennis with the sister. every 10 minutes, i'd call time and rest. she hopes the 'kid' picks up a racket and teach me how to play! we later enjoyed the fall weather by walking and shopping through town...... and ended the day with a trip to krogers' to look around the produce section. i've been eating ap...

i don't think i'll look at a mini-gummy bear the same way! here's my first ultrasound pic....at 9 weeks, the 'kid' apparently was moving his/her hands and feet. dancing to the beat of its own drums already. here's a pic, and to blur out some of my info, i added that wonderful little 'i heart u' up top. i still don't know what i feel or how to wrap my mind around being a P-A-R-E-N-T.

apparently i'm going to have many 'firsts' - first (hehe) for eight months throughout the rest of this pregnancy and second, well....for the rest of this kid's life. i've had so many experiences since starting this blog four years ago. lost friendships, gained momentum in my studies, figured out who i was and then lost what i thought i wanted to be. fell in love, got married. graduated. homeless, broke. success. prayers answered. i wanted to initially write my blog to figure out how i felt about religion and the missteps i know i'd have along the way. i wanted to feel like somewhere in this blogosphere were people who would help me get to where i'm supposed to be. i believe (and still do) that God uses everyone in all possible sense and different scenarios to better you, strengthen you and help lead the way to Truth. now i gotta figure all that out and sort it out before the end of april. and this blog will become a recording of this little mexican...

it's a wonderful 80-something degree outside. the wind picks up every now and then and i can sense the magical change of autumn in the air. i love this weather. this season. this time of the year. we'll have pumpkins decorated for halloween and turkey on our table before long. this is also the perfect time to run and kickstart my active lifestyle. i do not need to change anything, as far a caloric intakes go. in my 2nd trimester, i'm supposed to add 350 calories a day and in my 3rd, its 450 calories. i never bought that whole "eating for two," stuff. i am determined that for my weight range (and yes, i'm still in the obese category) to gain no more than 10 - 12 pounds. at last weigh in, i was at 170.4

my first prenatal appointment is next friday. in the meantime, i'm still pretending i'm not pregos....never mind that i have to get up a few times in the middle of the night to pee, that my 1st love of my life (coffee) is making me sick and my favorite sleeping position - on my tummy - is becoming my enemy and hurting my boobs. my equally selfish husband and i will sometimes sit in silence about the idea that our world that we believed revolve around ourselves is going to revolve around a little brat. i still look at babies the same. i don't want to hold them and the very thought of changing diapers makes me cringe. so, Universe - one question: when does the 'motherhood' bug kick in? during the first kick? the first time i see it's eyes open? the moment i no longer refer to 'it' and say 'baby?' i'm trying to take good care of myself in the meantime, researching all i can, but i'm starting to doubt google when i read about all th...