Storm of Hope: God, Preeclampsia, Depression and me (a book)

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UPDATE 7/2017:
I wrote a poetry collection/memoir about my experiences living with Preeclampsia during my second pregnancy in 2015. I was dealing with pregnancy anxiety that stemmed from my first pregnancy and having NICU memories with my daughter. I ended up with postpartum depression and wrote as much truths as I could. I hope that you'll come to find my words wherever you are in your season and find hope and faith in your beautiful mess. 

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